April 23, 2011

(pictures REALLY hate me today, they aren't uploading)

Day 46: Ran around with dad all day, then went driving. Then wen to mom's for dinner with Auntie Janine. We went out to eat, Nikki and her husband were there. He creeps me out, I'm not sure why though. He's just weird. Dinner was fine, I love downtown Richmond. It's beautiful at night, I'm obsessed. I went back to mom's, then back to dad's. I passed out, overly tired. Fourty-six days, down..a lot to go!

April 22, 2011

(pictures hated me today)

Day 45: Daddy and Carly had off of work. I took care of the dog and cat, then daddy, Carly, and I went to go see Water for Elephants. IT WAS AMAZING. Then we went to Kroger, and shopped. After we got home dad and I were watching Ghost Adventures, then at 10:30pm he and I went to Books a Million, then came back home and watched food network and more Ghost Adventures until all hours of the night.

April 21, 2011

Day 44: Woke up, took care of the dog and cat. Then cleaned the house super fast, watched TV, showered. Then Carly and I went to the Airport to pick daddy up! After we picked him up, we went to dinner. It was pretty good. Then we got home and he and I stayed up late watching food network.

April 20, 2011

Day 43: Kaitlyn and I woke up to Campbell coming in my room saying, "WAKE UP IT'S A HOLIDAY!" I don't consider 4/20 a holiday, but I know a lot of people do. Kaitlyn and I went to take care of the animals next door, then got ready to go shopping with my Mammaw. She picked us up, then we went to go get Haley. We went to McDonald's, I got a Big Mac. Then we went to Target where we ran into Emma and Daniel. It pretty much made my whole entire Spring Break. Then, we walked down to Kohl's. All the aunts where there with Mammaw. We shopped around a bit then did Yoga in the middle of the store..well Kaitlyn and I did. After went back to McDonald's where we ran into an obviously gay black fellow, he was funny. Kaitlyn and I came back to my house then got ready for the gym, we went to body jam. Then to Kroger to get salads. Kaitlyn's mom got mad at her. Carly came home and we hung out.

April 19, 2011

Day 42: Woke up early because I had to take car of the dog and cat next door. Came back home, cleaned up a bit then went to the movies with Carly. After the movie, we ran into target. Then we came home and I fell asleep on the couch. Kaitlyn called me and asked to come over because she was tired of being around crying people. So, Cam and I went and picked her up. Her mom wanted to meet Cam, it was awkward. We hung out all night and tried to go camping, but dad and I got in a fight..over the phone. He comes home on Thursday. So instead of camping we watch Barbershop. It was okay, we fell asleep down stairs.

April 18, 2011

Day 41: First official day of Spring Break, but it doesn't really feel like it. Woke up kinda late and waited for Carly to get home from her morning jog with Bigs. I was in a weird mood, I didn't really want to be bothered, but I didn't want to be alone. So basically I was alone all day, finally around 3:30 Carly got home and took me driving. After, we went on a walk behind James River High. Then the farm half a mile from my house. The river is right behind it and it was all flooded. It kind of made me sad, so I took a picture of it. It reminded me of whatever is blocking the path to where I want to be in life..I don't know maybe I just try to relate everything I see to something in life or something somewhat deep. Oh well. When we got home, I got ready for the gym and hit that up. Body combat makes me tired, I was seriously like dying. We had the normal instructor back...she's insane but super nice! After the gym I got gas and some lunchables then came home. I watched Secret Life and Make it or Break it. Then showered and rocked out to Taylor Swift. Now, I'm overly tired for no reason what so ever. But, fourty-one down..many to go.

April 17, 2011

Day 40: Woke up early, showered, then Jess picked me up. We went over to my mom's for breakfast. There were a bunch of people there. After breakfast and hanging out with everyone my mom and I cleaned up then Cam and I went back to dad's house. I picked up some clothes for Plato's closet, Cam taught we how to back out of our horrible driveway. I did good. My mom came and picked me up then we went to Plato's, they said it would be a wait so we ran to The Great Big Green House. There are A LOT of cute boys there, so I picked up an application. We went back to Plato's and they still weren't ready..after waiting 45 minutes I only got $30. Then my mom and I went and got ice cream, I filled out my application. Then we went back to The Great Big Green House to drop it off, my mom had to go to Blockbuster so I drove her there. Then we stopped back off by my dad's house to pick up a dress that needed to be returned at Target, then we stopped by my grandma's to refill her bird feeders. We came across a sign..should people in memory care nursing home's really have cars? Then we went to Target. It took us forever there, but I got new sunglasses and my mom got a few bra's. Then we stopped by my mom's to see the new puppy next door, then finally I went back to my dad's. I had to run over to the neighbor's to get a key for dog sitting all week. Carly cooked a really good dinner and then she and I watched a movie. I went to sleep as early as I could..but right when I was about to pass out Kyle texted me. And of course, I'm stupid and stayed up to text him. Insane day. Fourty days down, 325 to go!

April 16, 2011

Day 39: neVer forgeT. Five years since the Virginia Tech shooting. Kaitlyn and I woke up early and went to the gym with my mom. On the way there Kaitlyn got a text saying her uncle passed away. She broke down in the back of the car so I took her home. I worried about her all day, it was bad:( After dropping her off, my mom and I went to Target. Then I went back home and watched TV with Carly, cuddled with Biggie, then we went to sleep kinda early. Rest In Peace Uncle Billy

April 15, 2011

(The pictures are on Kaitlyn's camera)
Day 38: Friday, finally. Emma sat with us during Midlo Morning, is basically made my day wonderful from the very start. I love her more than life itself. We went outside in Bio and played this game, I think it was just to amuse Mrs.Collins but it was funny so it's all good! French test was easier than I thought, I'm doing pretty well in that class..I think. Kaitlyn was texting her mom in theater about her uncle...he wasn't doing well at all. She broke down so Mrs.Baugher let us spend the whole class in the bathroom so she could kinda chill out and cry. Lunch was fine, so was math. Cam drive Kaitlyn and I to her house, we hung out there. Tristian was extra hyper. Cam came and picked us up later, she spent the night. We watched ghost adventures pretty much all night, it was good. Cam took us to get pizza. We hung out and then went to sleep. Thirty-eight down, 3something to go!

April 14, 2011

Day 37: So that girl from yesterday..yeah her best friend decided to call me "the stupidest fucking bitch she'd ever met". Watched a movie in bio. Had a sub in history, don't think I did all that well on my map quiz. Had a english test on the book we read. Took a nature walk in creative writing. My poem about 9/11 was the only one she decided she didn't like. Emma makes me happy and the note she wrote me made me cry. I love her. And I love Emily, they're both adorable. Came home, mom picked me up then we picked up Kaitlyn. We went downtown to a jewlery party then rushed back up to the school at like 7:30ish to see Jessica's art show. She's adorable and her art is AMAZING..no wonder she's going to VCU arts. Kyle, Jess, Hopie, Brandi, Tammy, Meme, and Q were there..of course! I met Tess' Timo, he's really nice..from the two second conversation he and I had. Kyle was nice to me..surprisingly. Well once I told him that no, in fact Jacob and I are not together and I have no idea why Jacob would tell Kyle that. After the art show my mom, Kaitlyn, and I went to Kroger. Then Kaitlyn and I went back to my house, we finished out shirts for Virginia Tech. Then we passed out. Thrity-seven down, a ton to go!

April 13, 2011

Day 36: Kaitlyn and I slummed it, we were too tired to really do anything with ourselves. Rico made me mad in Midlo Morning, then again what else is new? This girl came up to me and was mad because apparently I was talking bad about her, but all I said was "why does she sit with us if none of us are friends with her?" and I said it to her face, so whatever. I love how everyone crowded around me and were super close, I felt protected. Bio test, second half, even easier. French was pretty easy, I was tired though and everyone was super loud. Rico punched Kaitlyn, she has a bruise on her ribs. In what right mind does a guy hit a girl for no reason? Theater was bad, super bad. My group did horrible. Lunch was BAD. I went to the clinic because I didn't feel well, the clinic ladies accused me of lying and trying to skip. I took their crap and walked out, I saw Cam and stated crying. He went and yelled at the ladies, so did my dad. I love my boys so much! I walked back to the lunch table, Rico was walking away really fast. Kaitlyn was crying, Sydney looked like Hell just froze over, she looked more than pissed. I asked what happened, when I walked away Rico was talking bad about me..really bad. Kaitlyn and Sydney stood up for me (I love them more than life itself). He apparently was an even bigger jerk than normal, again nothing new there. I started to cry again because I love them for sticking up for me and I felt bad that they had too. Emma walked up and the first thing she said was, "oh god, what's wrong?" I swear she knows everything. I explained what happened, I hugged Kaitlyn and Sydney for being so amazing, and Emma and I walked to math. I left after 5 minutes of sitting in math. Carly picked me up. I came home and passed out. My migraines are getting worse and my meds are making me really dizzy. I cancelled my tutoring session and slept some more. Sydney gave me some really good people to creep on, I felt bad about myself. I swear, some girls are just so pretty. I showered, fed bigs, fed myself, now it's 8:30 and I want more sleep. I can't handle this crap anymore, horrible day. Thirty-six down, 329 to go!

(again, my pictures are being stupid but I'll put them up soon!)

April 12, 2011

Day 35: Welp! Bio test was super easy, we only did half of it. History test was easier than I thought. English test wasn't too bad. I swear our teachers make all the tests on the same day on purpose. I'm really loving my english class these days. Lunch was fine, I just listened to everyone talk. Creative writing made me kinda mad, Mrs.Spanier said my work was bad again. I'm really trying...I promise. I just don't know what she wants. Emma and Emily kidnapped my camera, Mrs.Spanier is so oblivious to the world..I swear. Kimberly and Sydney made my day by saying I was gorgeous. After school, I uploaded pictures on facebook then I passed out..I was way overly tired. Carly and I went and picked up Kaitlyn, she ate dinner with us and met Carly's sister. She ended up sleeping over. We tried making shirts, but never finished. We goof off to much. We went to sleep late. Thirty-five down, a lot to go!

April 11, 2011

Day 34: Monday..oh God what a day. 91 degrees and sunny, it was so perfect. Bio was good, French was fine. Now after french is where it got..intense. Jacob and Kyle were talking about me, because Jacob said I was pretty cool or something and wanted to know if there was something between me and Kyle still. Well Kyle was mean about it and told Jacob to read my blog and said a few other things I don't really want to remember so I won't mention, does that surprise us? Nope, I can't say it does. Jacob grabbed my arm, Kaitlyn was trying to turn me around to figure out what was going on, Cam kept asking what was wrong, and then Kyle walked by. And I blew up, I freaked out, more than I normally would and called him a f***ing douche dag and said I hated him. Which I really don't, even though I wish I could..more than anything. I pulled away from Jacob, he left my arm purple, Kaitlyn ran after me. We went into theater, I fell on the floor and cried. I'm not sure why I cried, probably because I know I love him, I know it isn't right to love him, I want to hate him and again I know I can't. So pretty much, theater sucked. Mrs.Baugher made me mad, she threw away my drink that wasn't near or hurting ANYONE. I cried again, not over the drink but because I needed to. I was quite at lunch, I told Emma what happened and almost broke down again. Math sucked. After school, Carly picked her sister up from the airport. I went to the gym, body combat. It was intense. Kaitlyn and I went to Joann's after and bought stuff to make shirts. Andrew asked my to dinner. Today I learned: the world just isn't fair, but sometimes we have to smile and push through it. Jacob texted me and said he was sorry. Thirty-four down, 331 to go!

April 10, 2011

Day 33: Sunday's are always fun. Kaitlyn and I woke up early and went to yoga. My mom made us rush back to her house to clean, we were getting paid. By 2:00 everyone started cleaning, but my mom didn't count it as cleaning because Jess, Q, Kaitlyn, and myself cleaned out Q's car. Cam cleaned out his own. Kaitlyn and I ended up scrubbing the house from top to bottom..well not really, we dusted and wiped down base boards. We only got $25 each, it was a bit upsetting. Q and Jon got in a huge fight, Q and Jess left. We went by lucky's then had to go back to dad's because Carly's dad gets in town today. So we rushed and cleaned the whole house, we took out the trash, hung things up, and changed my room up a bit. Cam pissed me off, Kaitlyn left around 9. Gary and Carly got home around them. He's the cutest thing ever. My room is clean for once and I was almost stress free, today was a pretty good day. My picture for today decided to be stupid and not work:( Thirty-three down, 332 to go!

April 9, 2011

Day 32: Kaitlyn and I got up early, we hit the gym with my mom. My foot was insanely swollen after, I have foot issues. After, Kaitlyn got her eyebrows done, we stopped by the dollar store, and dressbarn. Later, we picked up my grandma and we went to get hair cuts. 2 INCHES WAS TAKEN OFF MINE...it's so short now. Well at least I feel like it is. We had lunch at Olive Garden, Kaitlyn was hungry.. We went back to the hair place so my mom could get her hair cut then we dropped my grandma off, Kaitlyn and I went back to my dad's. We hung out and started finding things to make headbands, yes we make headbands and so far they're turning out semi-okay. We watched Greece at 9ish and passed out on the couch, I woke back up at 4 in the morning and we went up stairs. She slept over again. I realized every picture I took today was of Kaitlyn..so here ya go, you get to see her face! Thirty-two down, 333 to go!

April 8, 2011

Day 31: Friday, all I have to say about this whole entire day is average. Bio, History, English, Creative Writing; just like every other even day. In bio we went outside and drew, one of the sub's at our school was taken to the hospital. Philis picked me a flower, I kept it all day. History was normal, in english I watered my flower. Creative writing I argued with Mrs.Sapnier..but I always do that. Kaitlyn rode the bus home with me, I got my permit..well my official one. I look like a chubby killer. She and I went to Kroger with Carly, we bought brownies and cookies. Carly had to work so kaitlyn and I chilled, she rapped..we got no homework done like we were planning. Facebook got an overload of videos from us. We passed out early. Only thirty-one down, way too many to go!

April 7, 2011

Day 30: Slummed it in my final four shirt and leggings. Jacob was acting different today, he hugged me and wanted to sit next to me. Jordan and Kaitlyn think he likes me, but I don't see him ever liking me. Bio was good, I understood everything and did well. French quiz was a lot easier than I thought, I think Mrs.Newman likes me. I'm happy about that, she's a really good teacher. Theater was not too good. Mrs.Baugher yelled at me, for no reason. Apparently I needed to "shut the hell up". Whatever. Lunch was good, again people going on about Jacob liking me. Rumors about a girl being pregnant are going around, whether it's true or not I tried to stop people from talking about it because it's no one's business but her own. Jordan got mad at me. Kaitlyn and I got more people to sign up for JROTC, I'm trying to help them start a program at Midlo. Kaitlyn's idea, but I want to help as much as I can. Math bores me, I think I did good on the quiz though so I'm proud about that. After school, I kinda chilled until 5:30. Mom made me drive, of course..I'm scared of other cars but I did well. We picked up Kaitlyn and went to the gym. We worked out with the old ladies in the pool, it seriously was intense since we have a new lady teaching the class. After, Kaitlyn and I convinced my mom to get Panera. Again, I drove. I'm getting better. Midlothian turnpike scares me. After I got home, I showered, talked to my grandma on the phone, and did laundry. Now it's time for sleep. Thirty down, 335 to go!

April 6, 2011

Day 29: Even days are slowly becoming rather annoying. Bio was interesting, Alex was sick and Monica called me Mary Poppins and some other things that were rude because I didn't agree with her idea to bomb African and Asian countries..her reasoning? There's too many people there..I know what you're thinking and I have no idea why someone would say that it's awful. History wasn't as fun without Alex, we pretty much took notes the whole time. English was fine, Mitchell and Jordan make me laugh. Lunch was funny, as always. I wasn't hungry, but ate anyway. Apparently Mrs.Spanier understands Emma's made up language and style of writing, but it "wouldn't get an A". I personally think it was amazing! Emily's a sweetheart. Creative writing isn't creative, I don't really think it ever was. Slept for three hours after school then had tutoring, did all my homework and finished everything for math. Cam and I went to five guys, I bought food for mom, Jon, Cam, and myself. Mom paid me back though. I got my final four shirt, FINALLY. Went home, showered, slept. Twenty-nine down, 336 to go!

April 5, 2011

Please don't mind my eye..I was winking but it didn't work to well as you can tell

Day 28: Welp! Today was no shoe day, so everyone at school walked around in socks. I love the fact that we're raising awareness for children in other countries..my only fear is more people just thought it was weird than actually realizing what the cause was for. Oh well. School was fine, nothing special that I can think of besides the fact I got an A on a bio test! Amazing, I know we never thought it would happen. But after school, I PASSED MY DRIVERS TEST THINGY! I was so excited, and I was only 9 months late on getting it;) My grandma get rushed to the hospital, so my mom and I went there to check on her. We took her back to the nursing home. I discovered parking lots scare me...they really scare me. Carly made an amazing dinner, then she took me out driving. I over correct too much, that's bad and I should probably work on it. She and I went and got dessert, it was wonderful..I could've died eating it and been completely happy with my life. After we got home I showered and went to sleep. Twenty-eight down, 337 to go!

April 4, 2011

Day 27: HORRIBLE. HORRIBLE. HORRIBLE. HORRIBLE DAY. I want to leave, I need a vacation. I can't deal with Midlothian and the people here..well most of them. We got new seats in bio, I like my seat. Right in the front, I pay attention better there. But the kids in that class make me want to hurt myself, very badly. History annoyed me today, no one would shut up and I had a killer migraine. Worse than normal. English sucked, Spewak was in a bad mood and people just pissed me off. Oh and group work doesn't work when you lie about your number..STUPID PEOPLE. Mrs.Spanier made me mad more than anyone today. She has that ability. According to her, I'm negative, my writing is not good, and I "threw a pen at her". I'm sorry, but when did you become the floor under my desk? And I dropped it because I was mad, because you wouldn't let me go to the library to type up my poem but then proceed to give me a zero for not "doing my work". EXCUSE ME MISS, BUT YOU WOULDN'T LET ME. After class, Kyle was standing with Kaitlyn. I walked up to her and told her what happened and what do you know Kyle had something to say about it..OF COURSE HE DID. He told me to "F*** OFF" and to "GET THE F*** AWAY" I called him a dick and it blew up from there. He walked away and so did Sydney. Then I started to cry and tried to explain that seeing him makes me break, it makes me crumble. I fall and forget who I am, I forget everything good and go into like a depression but at the same time he gives me butterflies and makes me smile. Obviously, this made no sense because people looked at me like I was stupid but the uncontrollable sobbing probably had something to do with that. Kaitlyn hugged me, Jordan asked what was wrong, Jacob hugged me and started to sing..without letting go. He always sings. It made me laugh though, I needed to laugh. Kaitlyn and I went to our buses. I told Rose what happened, then called my dad and told him everything. I miss him, a ton. More than I thought I would. When I got home, I vented to Carly then she went to work and I went to sleep. Then I woke up and showered and did homework. I still have yet to understand why we need direct variation in life, but whatever. Horrible day, it needs to end. Like now. I seriously need to escape to somewhere calm and quite. I need to let go of everything and breath for two seconds on my own. UGH, PEOPLE SUCK..mainly Kyle and Mrs.Spanier, but still THEY SUCK. Twenty-seven down, too many to go.

April 3, 2011

Day 26: Sunday, my relax day. I woke up feeling like crap. My dad left today for three weeks, I was and still am so upset. I pretty much laid around all day and watched movies. I cleaned a bunch too and watched the ACMs, Taylor Swift won entertainer of the year. That didn't surprise me at all though, she's the entertainer of a lifetime. I went to sleep a little late. 339 more, lord help us!

April 2, 2011

Day 25: Saturdays are always fun. Woke up at 3:30am, got ready and left the house at 5:15ish. Dad and I went to the 10k race to set up. I worked for a while, it was fun. Biggie was a hit, like always. The DMV systems were down, so I couldn't take the test. It pissed me off, majorly. Dad and I picked up Kaitlyn from Sydney's, then we came back home. We watched a movie then went to Goodwill, didn't find much. So, we didn't buy anything. On the way home, we stopped by Rita's then went to Kroger and bough $17 worth of candy. Then came home and watched the game, Final Four. VCU lost, but they're still amazing! And we all love them and are proud anyway. After we didn't really do anything, went to sleep early. Twenty-five down, 340 to go!

April 1, 2011

Day 24: Friday, no school. Woke up at 11, watched Tristian with Kaitlyn. Cleaned, came home cut my leg. Slept with Biggie. Again, no need to say anything about today. Twenty-four down, 431 to go!

March 31, 2011

Day 23: Not a very bad day. Did nothing in bio. Had a french sub, so we did nothing. Rico pisses me off. Did nothing in theater at all, but goofed off. Lunch annoyed me. Math sucked. Slept all afternoon, Kaitlyn's house after I woke up. Mall with her, bought some shirts and hung out. Not much to say about this day. Twenty-three down, 342 to go!

March 30, 2011

Day 22: HORRIBLE DAY! But what else is new these days? On the bright side, I slummed it with Kaitlyn today. Did good on my bio quiz this morning, so that's good. Did nothing but notes and watched a movie in history. Ally is nicer than I thought, I shouldn't have judged her. English was fine, did vocab before lunch. Lunch was fine, almost no one was there because of the chorus trip. After lunch all we did was watch movies for an hour. Rico came back today, after 3 weeks. He pisses me off. Mrs.Spanier makes me want to punch someone or something. She. Is. Ridiculous. We read, ALL CLASS. It was horrible, honestly the stupidest/worst book ever. I wanted to cry. After school, I went to the bank with my dad. My debt card is coming in the mail soon. Then, the day went down. Q now has a felony charge and might be in jail for up to a year. And because of this, Jess broke up with him. I'm worried he's gonna do something stupid tonight since he's on his own until my mom gets back. It's like, come one kid you're almost 20 get it together and go get help. I'm super worried about him though, I love my big brodder. Cam's car has issues so me and dad had to go help him. After we "fixed" it I went home with Cam and dad and Carly went to the movies. I took a hour long nap, then had tutoring. Then showered and ate dinner. Now watching American Idol with daddy and Carly. I need to catch up on my sleep. Twenty-two down, 343 to go!

March 29, 2011

Day 21: Today wasn't all that bad, I guess. We watched a movie in bio, french was fine. Took a test on passe compose, I think I did pretty good. Theater was fun, didn't really do anything. Probably should've done more, but we goofed off the whole time. Kaitlyn's mamma brought us McDonalds, she's so cute. I got a happy meal, of course. Math sucked, I hate it..as always. Took a math test, I didn't do to bad I guess. I left some blank though. Oh well. I went home with Kaitlyn, her aunt Amy came over. Amy is my new obsession, she's so funny. Kaitlyn couldn't untie her sweatpants, she used forks. Kaitlyn and I went to the gym and didn't get much done. I came home, did homework. Had a break down, then went to sleep. Twenty-one down, 344 to go!

March 28, 2011

Day 20: Not the best day. I woke up to the bathroom flooded, thank you broken toilet. Midlo morning annoys me now, I hate when the boys are constantly touching me or my belongings. Bio was fine, took notes all class. History kinda sucked, I don't even know why. English was somewhat okay, normal I guess. I'm a sucker for Spewak though. Lunch was fine, I got a tummy ache. I seriously almost broke down in creative writing, too stressed out. Plus Mrs.Spanier is ridiculous and we have one project for the 4th 9 weeks and it's the only grade. I'm going to fail it. I'm seriously considering just not doing it. She makes me want to just cry, I kinda hate myself when she's around. Then I saw Kyle, just the person I didn't want to see..he puts me in an even worse hating myself mood. After school, I did nothing..nothing at all. I laid in bed in a crappy mood and listened to downer music. Chickfila was amazing though, I love every single one of those girls. They're simply amazing. When I got home I showered then sat down to finish the endless hours of bio homework I have and what do you know I left my book at the gym on Friday...F MY LIFE. I was pissed. I did french homework instead now I just want sleep. But I don't think it's gonna happen tonight, waah:( twenty down, 345 to go!

March 27, 2011

Day 19: Sleep in late, cleaned a bit. Did a ton of laundry. Showered, bought some clothes online. Kaitlyn and I watch Jackass 3D, FREAKING AMAZING. gross, but amazing. Cleaned some more, had some banging spaghetti. We watched Teen Mom 2 then hung out. Again with the life talks. I stocked up on my food and made my closet look good. I still have my balloons from my birthday, they're almost gone though. Kaitlyn left around 9. Argued with my dad, because he's ridiculous sometimes. I'm basically to tired to really write, so I'm going to head to bed soon. School tomorrow, not looking forward to it..at all. Nineteen down, 346 to go!

March 26, 2011

Day 18: Slept pretty much all day. Had tutoring at 2, that was fun. Kaitlyn and I went to the mall after. We ran into just about everyone, it was weird. We were followed many times by creepy guys screaming things at us. I bought shoes and stuff, I love them but I'm not sure how they look on me yet. I love the mall with her, it's amazing. As we were walking out and older man started saying stuff about how he was going to come and get us, we proceeded to a whole lot faster out the door. When we got back to my house we pretty much tore apart my closet looking for anything that looks cute with my shoes and that will look good for the beach. (I can't wait, I'm seriously counting down the days) Apparently I looked like a pimp, so my dad gave me a cane. Biggie's my "bitch". My favorite uncle on my mom's side was in town, so around 9:30ish Kaitlyn and I went and hung out at my mom's with him. We watched TMZ, it was horrible. Emily is the cutest pug in the world, I love my baby. Kaitlyn and I went back to my house, had many more life talks, vented, then went to sleep. Eighteen down, 347 to go!

March 25, 2011

Day 17: Welp! Today was pretty perfect. My pictures suck though. Bio was bio, Alex rapped..nothing new there. I love her. French was good, I'm one of the only people in the class that got an A on a test so that's cool. Theater was interesting. Mrs.Wilson came and talked to our class to see what we wanted to change about Midlo. It was somewhat okay. Lunch was lunch, didn't talk much. Math makes me want to crawl in a hole and never come out. But thankfully we only had an hour because we had the senior vs. teacher basketball game. It was good, I sat with Emma, Syd, and Kaitlyn. I love them. Our school is a tad ridiculous. After school, Kaitlyn and I went straight to sweetfrog then booked it to the gym. We were there for three or so hours. Worked out hard, well sorda. We had many life talks. After that, we went to see my darling Katie in her school play. So, I officially met EMMA R AND KAITE. Kaite is the most adorable fake guy, EVER. I'd so date her. I hope you all know, my life was completely made that night. It was perfection. Emma Williamson is just to adorable when she freaks out about libraries. I saw my exboyfriend's family, that was awkward..even though they don't know who I am. My mother made Kaitlyn and I go to Sport's Page after the play. VCU won, OF COURSE. Kaitlyn got thrown up on, we left shortly after that. Got back to my house late and just about passed out. Too busy for one day, I love every second of it! Seventeen down, 348 to go!

March 24, 2011

Day 16: Today, I was walking on sunshine! I spent Midlo Morning the beginning of school in the bathroom, we had a clothes swap today among the girls. We have a revolving closet, that Emma is now included in! Then in the library with Kaitlyn, Emma, and Sydney. Then we were talking too much so Kaitlyn, Sydney, and I had to go in a different room. Bio was wonderful, Mrs. Collins makes me laugh. We didn't do much and what we did do was super duper easy. In history we has a map quiz on Africa, I did really good. Mrs. Schenk is amazing for giving us a word bank, even though she's totally against them. We spent most of class in the gym where they were doing the blood drive, Mrs. Schenk runs all the good things the school is invovled in. I knew there was a reason her parents named her Mary Katherine. English was fine, Jordan was being mean to me for a while. We had a surprise vocab quiz on words we didn't know..that was fun. I think I got at least a B, so that's not bad. Lunch was the best ever, I'm not even joking. Callie made me laugh so hard I was full out crying, then she started crying because apparently she didn't get into Hogwarts. She's the perfect human being, my days would be boring without her, Alex (Philis), Emma, Kaitlyn, and Sydney. Funniest people you will ever meet, hands down. Back to english, we spent the last hour of class walking The Fantastic Mr.Fox, I love Mr. Spewak for showing us the movie of pure genius. In creative writing we finished the magazines and stuff, they're alright. Tess and I went to Ski Center and a few other places to drop off copies with their ads in them. Then we stopped by Sweetfrog before going back to school, I grabbed Emma some because she wrote me a story. I seriously and so in love with that story it's insane, it's so adorable. I might post it on my other blog tomorrow if I have her permission, we'll see. After school, I did a bunch of Bio homework, it isn't due until the 30th though. Cam made a pizza for dinner because my dad was going to be late getting home. I watched a new NCIS, I'm a complete addict when it comes to cop shows..but NCIS has to be the best by far. Then I went to the gym with Kaitlyn and my mom. We did water aerobics. I never thought it got more awkward than seeing a teacher outside of school. Well guess what, it does. Try seeing your Bio teacher, at the gym..in the locker room..in your bikini. SO. WEIRD. Kaitlyn and I took a picture..with her in the background, we're creepy like that;) After that super awkward run in and the even more awkward "oh, how are you?" while trying to cover myself up..with my arms. again, AWKWARD. My mom dropped Kaitlyn and I off at home, I showered, ate a banana, drank a glass of milk, finished my math homework, cuddled with Biggie, and showed my dad the creative writing thing. He said my pieces were good and I should not blogging for the world to steal. He said I should keep a journal, with my thoughts and feelings and one day publish it into a story. What he doesn't know is, my blogs are the worst things I've ever written, I have journals filled with stories, poems, thoughts, feelings, and heart break. Anyway, back on topic, my day was amazing. I loved every second of it. Now, I need sleep before I go back to the gym tomorrow. I can't wait! Sixteen down, 349 to go!

March 23, 2011

Day 15: Oh gosh, where to begin. Well there were kidnappers in my neighborhood yesterday trying to grab kids in the mornings at their bus stops. I go to the bus stop while it's dark out, I'm scared to death. Bio was good. I went up a letter grade it's still not where I want to be, but a C isn't bad..right? Alex Sandborn (Philis) is my love, Mrs. Collins and I are the best of the best now. She's proud of me for actually paying attention. French was good, I was a little out of it today though so I didn't answer any questions or raise my hand much. We're learning 17 new verbs and have a test on them on Monday, kill me. The quiz we took today was easy, I know I got one wrong though. I'm positive I did. Theater was amazing, we had an issue with the music so we had to start all over. I had my lines perfect the first time, the second time however..not so good. I got a line backwards. I played it off smoothy though, I was crying anyway so it turned out fine. Lunch was the normal, Kaitlyn and Jordan "play" arguing. Jordan's been getting an attitude lately though, and now Jacob's nicer. It's weird but, I like it. Kaitlyn found a penguin, well this girl left it at our table so she took it. Robbie hates pictures. Kaitlyn and I are obsessed with Starbucks and THIS tea. (it's heavenly) Math makes me want to crawl in a hole and never come out. Emma makes it better though, she puts me in a better mood after class. She's too funny. Mrs. Hackworth is out to get me, I swear. My grades are going up in that class though. I'm happy about that. After school, Cam drove me home. I was rushing to get ready when I realized Kaitlyn had the black skirt I was going to wear to the interview. I begged Carly to drive me over there so I grabbed it and we made it with 10 minutes to spare. The interview went amazing, the guy was really nice and he likes that I'm 16 so I can work there for a while before college. For some reason my dad was with Carly when I was done with the interview. I went to Urban Outfitters and looked around, they talked. I got a job application, my dad left. Carly and I went to Starbucks and got something to eat and we talked some. Mainly about Kyle, she says to do what my heart feels. "My heart wants you, but my mind knows it's not right.."(the line I messed up today, but also how I feel about kyle) Once I got home I worked for hours on a stupid 5 page project along with all my other homework. My paper sucks, but I can't get worse than a C and if I do then, I. will. cry.. I showered, ate dinner, and am now blogging. Gosh, this day was busy and tiring. I've been getting no sleep lately, THANK YOU VERY MUCH KYLE MITCHELL. Time for sleep, I need a new day. Fifteen down, 350 to go!

March 22, 2011

Day 14: I pretty much stressed out ALL DAY, it was ridiculous. We had a family of water bottles at Midlo Morning, Kaitlyn had Iced Tea and Vitamin water, Sydney had Vitamin water and powerade, I had water. I understood everything in Bio, Mrs.Collins and I are getting along better and my grades are going up! Took a test in History, I think I did pretty well. I'm still worried though. I have to do my whole entire project by Thursday and we have a quiz on Thursday to. English was good, we had to act out a scene using some of our vocab words from every lesson we've learned. That wasn't to hard, I had the most amazing group though. Did bio work all lunch, after my stupid popcorn got suck in the vending machine. I hate those things sometimes. Creative writing consisted of a stupid game. The final round was just stupid, none of us could talk so Mrs.Spanier could hear..even though she always complains about how she hears everything we say. Apparently we're loud. Emma took pictures of this "event" and of my water bottle. Also of Emily and Arnold sleeping. After school I was going to do my whole project but I fell asleep, so I'm going to have to do it after my interview tomorrow. Jess and Q came over for a few minutes. I did laundry, cleaned, and did some more bio and listened to endless amounts of Rascal Flatts. Now, I need sleep. Fourteen days down, 351 to go!

March 21, 2011

Day 13: Average day, I guess. Took notes all first period, some kids in my class really annoyed me today..nothing new there though. French was good I guess, I understand everything we're doing so that's good. Theater was amazing, I love what we're doing. I get to be in a relationship with someone where the relationship starts good, gets rocking with a lot of fighting and a break up but they end up back together in the end. We had to put it to music so we're doing Chasing Pavements and one of Mrs.Baugher's songs. I'm excited to finally get mad and say what I need to say to a certain someone but instead I'm saying it to my friend. But still, it gets to be said..out loud for the first time, ever. Kaitlyn and I wore Kyle's shirts today, I don't know why..but we did. Jacob was in our lunch today, I didn't talk much. Emma and I walked to math together, I love her. We had a math quiz. I seriously want to die every time I'm in math. So instead of doing my homework after the quiz I wrote. I filled up a bunch of pages in my journal. I only wrote one poem the rest was just feelings. Surprise, surprise. I feel like I'm losing someone who I'm close with, that always sucks. I slept until 5:15 after school. Saxon Shoes called me, I have an interview Wednesday at 3, I'm nervous but excited. Then went to Starbucks with Carly; I had tutoring. Got most of my homework done, like three nights worth of homework I hadn't done yet. Carly and I went to the ATM, then went home. It took us an hour to get home though, we stopped for like 45 minutes and sat in her car in a parking lot and talked. We talked about everything, I told her about my confusion with Kyle. Feeling like I lost my best friend, the family problems we're having. How much I miss my brother, just about everything. I love having her living with us, I just wish it didn't feel like my mom was back. I hate arguing nonstop. When we got home, my dad made me mad but we were fine like two minutes later. I finished the rest of my math, we ate dinner and watch the Pretty Little Liars season finale. I don't know what I'll do now that it's over, it's my favorite show. I showered, cleaned my room, and did laundry. My dad came in my room to talk to me, I basically broke down and told him about the Kyle situation. He said I need to help myself before I help others, so I shouldn't put myself in a situation where I'd get hurt again. I totally see what he means, but I can't it. I love the kid. Studying all night, to stressed to sleep. Thirteen down, 352 to go!

March 20, 2011

Day 12: FIRST DAY OF SPRING! I love spring, I'm so excited. Anyway, today Kaitlyn and I woke up at 8ish and couldn't move thanks to the gym yesterday. We were dying, she had to crawl up the stairs..it was kind of funny though. Went hit the gym for bodypump and yoga, we were there for two hours and it killed us. I'm not looking forward to trying to get tomorrow. After the gym we went to Rita's then had to go a few places with my mom. We dropped Kaitlyn off and I grabbed my stuff and my mom took me back to my dad's. In the five minute car ride everything my mom and I have been working to fix, in our very screwed up relationship, was ruined. I walked into my dad's crying, which tends to happen a lot after being with my mom. My dad made me soup and he gave me my birthday card and present, finally!;) I have a debt card now, but the requires having money..which sucks because I have next to none. I took a nap then showered. I helped Cam and Carly clean the kitchen. Cam bought me Sour Patch Kids so I had to help. I applied at Target and I'm trying to find more places to apply. I read the first chapter of Night, it's good so far. Kyle texted me and was acting weird, he read my blog though so I expect him to act different. I don't want to be his second choice, I love him but I love myself to and I don't want to be ANYONE'S second choice. Off to bed but 9, that is if I can sleep tonight. Normal day, I'm overly tired though. Twelve down, 353 to go!

March 19, 2011

Day 11: Oh gosh, today I went to the gym with Kaitlyn..at 9:00am. I thought I was going to die. After the gym, we went to Target and got new hoop ear rings and some clothes. Then my mom made us go shopping with her and stuff. Jess' car got towed, her and Q were freaking out. Crap went down, they go it back though! Well, Tammy did. Kaitlyn and I went back to my house. Then I proceeded to freak out because it was Tori's birthday party AND my brother's birthday dinner at the same time. I had to go to my brother's because I never get to see him. He's now 23. Then I went to Kaitlyn's late and helped her babysit her brother and his friend. Kaitlyn and I watched a scary movie and made cookies. Oh and Kyle freaking Grausgruber knows about my other blog now, yup that's right..HE READ IT. I honestly felt like puking. The moon was beautiful, I have horrible picture taking abilities though..as you can tell. Kaitlyn and I went to sleep around one, well we basically passed out.. Eleven down, 354 to go!

March 18, 2011

Day 10: Friday's are my favorite. School was better than normal, I love my Midlo Morning table. Movie in first. Played a review game and joked around in history, like always. English was normal; did a research project on the Holocaust. Callie is my love. Lunch made me die with laughter. Creative writing was..interesting. Mrs.Spanier freaked out, no one paid attention to her, nothing new there. We recorded Emma being, well just being Emma. She's perfection, I love her with everything I have! She's such an amazing person. She made us go on a nature walk all around outside. She's weird like that. She told us her life story and her "crazy friend", Carrol. Oh, and she's never smoked pot. I don't think anyone believe her when she said that though. Kaitlyn rode home with me, we hung out at my house. We to Kroger with Carly. Then dyed my hair, we watched a scary movie with my dad well more like the SCARIEST MOVIE EVER! We ate a ridiculous amount of candy and chips. Crashed early, a normal Friday. Ten days down, 355 to go!

March 17, 2011

Day 9: ST.PATRICK'S DAY; My personal favorite holiday! Slept in today, it's sad that I consider 5:30 sleeping in but oh well! I wore Kyle's shirt today, of course everyone had something to say about it. I really don't see what the big deal is, he and I were together for a long time. So what, I have a few of his shirts..deal with it! ;) Anyway, watched a movie in Bio then another in French. Theater was fun as always, I took a picture of my group..Moody's in there somewhere! I'm really excited about preforming on Wednesday. We listened to Adele, it made me miss Kyle..A LOT. Well, more than I did before. Lunch was lunch. Math was horrible, like always. Mrs.Hackworth has a deep hate for me, why? I don't know but she does. After school is where it was fun. My dad got home at 4ish, he and I went to Walmart and joked around and bought things. Justin Bieber is E.V.E.R.Y.W.H.E.R.E! It's kind of ridiculous, but then again he has millions and he's living my dream so more power to him! Jessica randomly sent me a picture of a girl from a target commercial saying it looked like me. The scary thing is, it REALLY looks like me. Creepy look alike, at least I know what I'm gonna look like when I get older! Today was a good day, I love spending time with my daddy. Tomorrow's gonna be better, I can already tell. Nine days down, 356 to go!

Looks like me right?! Creepy..

March 16, 2011

Day 8: Welp! Everyday brings new adventures, right? Well it's suppose to, I think. Lately mine haven't been very adventurous at all, they've been rather boring actually. Today was no different then the others, school was good. First period we had presentations; we had to dress up hence the picture. History was normal, everyone joking around and Ms.Schenk continuing to be my favorite teacher. English was good, more learning about World War 2. We started reading Night, it's uh...interesting. Very disturbing, but interesting in the least. Lunch was amazing, I don't think we ever stop laughing on even days. After lunch however, was a different story. Callie and I pretty much got attacked by a freshmen, her name unknown, that has a crush on a girl in my grade. Yes, girl. I have no issue if you're gay, but in ANY case if someone doesn't like you back then shouldn't you stop.."chasing" them? I don't know, interesting situation I guess. I don't really know this girl, so no judging there. But it's rude to yell at people you don't know and follow them down the hall screaming. Like, excuse me miss, but I don't know you! Creative writing was stressful, stupid magazine..no one reads you anyways! We shouldn't have to put so much work into it. Mrs.Spanier chased me down in the hall after class and wants my dad to come to magic tricks in class. Weird, I know. Listened to Rose's drama on the bus ride home. Got home, ate a bowl of thin mint ice cream then threw on jeans and one of kyle's old shirts; complete and total comfort, it makes me miss everything so much more though. Went to petsmart with Carly and Biggie. He was scared to get his nails clipped, I felt bad for the little baby! Had a deep talk with Carly about everything going on and who my true friends are. Carly bought me Starbucks, then we came home. I took a nap, my tutor was 30 minutes late. There was a bad accident, God bless the people hurt! Hoping to be asleep by 9:30, just like the Weaver days! Eight days down, 357 to go!

March 15, 2011

Day 7: Today was a good day, went by super fast but overall good. First period was fine, I was tired and people were presenting their projects so I kinda just sat there. French was good, I understand everything we're doing and I got an A on our last quiz. Theater was amazing; we went to the room instead of in the theater. We all sat in the dark with a few candles lit and talked and shared stories of when we were younger. Our class needs to be closer and all the pointless drama and conflict needs to stop. Kaitlyn played in the candles with Moody, I curled up in one of the billions of chairs next to Baughie. Apparently, I look like I dyed my hair; I really should stop straightening it. I haven't been feeling well so during lunch Cam took me home. When I got home I listen to Taylor Swift and took a three hour nap; it was perfection in a nut shell. After my nap I showered and did my homework. It's 6:15 and I already want to go back to sleep. Being sick stinks! Seven down, 358 to go!

March 14, 2011

Day 6: PI DAY! I got no sleep last night and honestly didn't want to wake up this morning. But school is ridiculous and because of it I have to walk out of my house at 6:39am EVERYDAY. Besides the horrible nights sleep, which is happening just about every night lately, my day wasn't all that bad. First period was good, I think Mrs.Collins is warming up to me. I convinced her to let us pick the days we have our group projects due, I did some major sucking up. I spent the whole period freaking out about my quiz in second period, the eastern and northern europe map quiz and capitals. I did very well, I forgot a capital though. English was fun, we're learning about World War 2 and we're going to start reading Night; I'm excited. World War 2 is my favorite topic to learn about, don't ask why..I'll sound weird. We had a pizza party in 6th period, creative writing is slowly becoming my favorite class. No matter how horrible of a mood I'm in I walk into creative writing and Emma hugs me like she hasn't seen me in years, even though she saw me only seconds before class. She's my obsession. After school I slept until 5:30, Jess and Q came over for dinner. I love seeing my brother, I wish he and I were closer again. I cuddled with biggie and watched Pretty Little Liars, BEST SHOW ON TV. I've fallen into love Selena Gomez and the Scene's new single, Who Says is pure genius. One of the most inspiring songs out there and the video is amazing. Don't let anyone bring you down or tell you, you aren't good enough! Six down, 358 to go!

March 13, 2011

Day 5: Today was a normal Sunday, I guess..I hate normal days. Anyway, I woke up around 10, Carly was at work so dad and I visited her and got teas. Then, we went to Kroger, there was a very creepy guy who commented on the pickle I was eating. This man must've been in he's 50's, I walked away as quickly as possible. We ran into Sydney, Sharon, and Tori Hessler-allen, they were about to go to Wendy's. Then dad and I went home, the whole day kind of went down from there. I cuddled with Biggie though, that was nice. He's such a baby. I'll be up studying all night, because I'm pretty sure I'm not going to be able to sleep much. Hopefully the week will be more eventful! Six down, 359 to go!

March 12, 2011

Day 4: Today was a pretty average day, hung out around the house and cleaned a bit. Later I went to my aunts house for the March birthday dinner. I was super tired of cake, cookies, cupcakes..just about anything loaded with sugar so I had a fruit salad with candles. Kelsey had a princess cake, of course. My grandpa wasn't able to come, it's been to sick lately. Quinton didn't show up, I honestly wasn't surprised. Carly, dad, and I watch National Treasure 2 then I went to sleep. Daylight savings sucks. Five down, 360 to go!

March 11, 2011

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Day 4: So, I took an adorable picture of Emma and I that I was going to put on here. But I decided years from now I don't want to think back to this day and remember the test Emma and I were stressing over while the picture was being taken. I want to remember what truly happened, what I truly felt. Today, Japan was hit by a 26-foot tsunami, along with a 8.9 earthquake followed by 19 aftershocks. I was sitting on the bus and my phone was blowing up with people's tweets saying pray for Japan. I looked up, overly confused, and said "What happened to Japan?" Everyone looked at me like I was crazy, no one seemed to know what I was talking about. So I googled it. It blows my mind to think while I was sleeping, being self-centered about my birthday dinner, and stressing out over nothing..people were hurting. People were dying, people were losing everything that had; everyone they loved. Then I noticed at school no one really cared about the people in Japan, they didn't know anyone there; they had no reason to care. Today I truly learned how selfish humans are, I don't want to be just another self-centered person in the world. I won't forget about what happened to the people in Japan, I hope no one does. But I'm going to be different from every other kid at my school, I want to make a difference. I want to find a way to help, now I'm off to brainstorm! four days down, 361 to go!

March 10, 2011

Day 3: Rainy days make me smile! We had the writing SOL today, it was super easy but extremely boring. Creative writing angered me, as always. My teacher doesn't realize how ridiculous she's being sometimes. I yell at her a lot, she doesn't pay attention if I don't; otherwise, I wouldn't yell. After school was fine I guess, I washed my bed spread and watched Teen Mom 2. Got ready for dinner while dancing around my room rocking out to Jbiebes. My mom, Cam, and I went out to dinner at Wild Ginger, BEST SUSHI EVER! I haven't seen my mom in a while, I hardly ever see her. Even though she lives a mile down the street, oh well life's life. Dinner was so much fun, Cam now likes lamb (thanks to me). They brought me my favorite dessert, my mom got me clothes and she gave me one of her favorite rings that I always use to want to wear when I was little. That was nice of her. My mom made friends with the waitress, Jeany. Got dropped off back at home, I got ready for bed then attempted to talk to my dad about class rings. He isn't to happy about the costs, I'm going to try to pay him back once I can manage to get a job. I'm now in a weird mood and just want sleep. So after I finish rocking out to Taylor Swift to bed I go! goodnight world, goodnight life! three down, 362 to go!

March 9, 2011

Day 2: I slept until 8:30 today and went to school at 10. Bad dreams really get to me sometimes, I slept in my dad's room with him and his girlfriend. When I got to school people decided to attempt to start a fight in the open commons, of course I witnessed it so Kaitlyn and I were pulled into the office to write down our statements. I don't think school seems to realize that I had no part in it at all nor was it my business so I shouldn't have been sitting in a strangely uncomfortable chair writing down my "account of what happen"..so ridiculous. Theater was fun; we're doing a piece of Little Red Riding Hood, I'm excited to preform. But then again I'm always excited for theater. My camera decided it didn't like Kaitlyn and me so it took a random picture of the floor. Mamma Myriah wanted a family picture, so we took one. At lunch, we had a deep debate on abortion, that was fun..I guess. We all had different point of views so it was interesting. I walked with Emma and Robbie to math, like always. The Jesus couple didn't make room for Jesus today, but then again they hardly ever do. I actually enjoyed Algebra 2 for the first time all year. We had a sub, who attempted to teach us something new. It didn't go over well, but she tried and I applaud her for the effort! After school Campbell and I went to Sweet Frog, I got my usual; It was amazing. I hung out around the house and did nothing but listen to Taylor Swift until my math tutor came, he was just as confused as I was. Then my dad, Carly, and I went out to dinner. It wasn't what we expected and my stomach kind of hurts. I decided I'm tired of the same old same old. I think it's time to change it up a bit! We'll see what tomorrow brings. two days down, 363 to go!

March 8, 2011

Today's my 16th birthday! I was thinking back to this exact day last year and how different things were then. So I was kind of interested to see how my life would change a year from now, but this time I'm documenting it. So here we go, My 16th year!

Day 1: Today, I went to school like normal. Kaitlyn and Sydney showed up with balloons, a crown, cupcakes, a HUGE picture frame, a baby picture frame, cookies..the whole nine! I was in complete and total shock. Classes were normal, not boring but not all that fun. We had an SOL today, I was upset..but Mr.Spewak did give me skittles and starburts! I got attacked many times because of the cupcakes, but it's okay..I had 63. Kyle took three, but I let him because well he's Kyle. I gave Godwin cookies, he gave me a necklace with butterflies all over it. Last period was fun, Tess and I sold ads. We failed, but we did buy cupcakes and go to sweetfrog! After looking ridiculous trying to carry everything out of school, Sydney helped me. Well, after laughing at me first. After school I slept, I'm going out to eat soon with my dad and brother though! Today has been amazing, all thanks to my amazing friends and family. They mean the world to me. One day down, 364 to go!