Day 34: Monday..oh God what a day. 91 degrees and sunny, it was so perfect. Bio was good, French was fine. Now after french is where it got..intense. Jacob and Kyle were talking about me, because Jacob said I was pretty cool or something and wanted to know if there was something between me and Kyle still. Well Kyle was mean about it and told Jacob to read my blog and said a few other things I don't really want to remember so I won't mention, does that surprise us? Nope, I can't say it does. Jacob grabbed my arm, Kaitlyn was trying to turn me around to figure out what was going on, Cam kept asking what was wrong, and then Kyle walked by. And I blew up, I freaked out, more than I normally would and called him a f***ing douche dag and said I hated him. Which I really don't, even though I wish I could..more than anything. I pulled away from Jacob, he left my arm purple, Kaitlyn ran after me. We went into theater, I fell on the floor and cried. I'm not sure why I cried, probably because I know I love him, I know it isn't right to love him, I want to hate him and again I know I can't. So pretty much, theater sucked. Mrs.Baugher made me mad, she threw away my drink that wasn't near or hurting ANYONE. I cried again, not over the drink but because I needed to. I was quite at lunch, I told Emma what happened and almost broke down again. Math sucked. After school, Carly picked her sister up from the airport. I went to the gym, body combat. It was intense. Kaitlyn and I went to Joann's after and bought stuff to make shirts. Andrew asked my to dinner. Today I learned: the world just isn't fair, but sometimes we have to smile and push through it. Jacob texted me and said he was sorry. Thirty-four down, 331 to go!
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