Day 13: Average day, I guess. Took notes all first period, some kids in my class really annoyed me today..nothing new there though. French was good I guess, I understand everything we're doing so that's good. Theater was amazing, I love what we're doing. I get to be in a relationship with someone where the relationship starts good, gets rocking with a lot of fighting and a break up but they end up back together in the end. We had to put it to music so we're doing Chasing Pavements and one of Mrs.Baugher's songs. I'm excited to finally get mad and say what I need to say to a certain someone but instead I'm saying it to my friend. But still, it gets to be said..out loud for the first time, ever. Kaitlyn and I wore Kyle's shirts today, I don't know why..but we did. Jacob was in our lunch today, I didn't talk much. Emma and I walked to math together, I love her. We had a math quiz. I seriously want to die every time I'm in math. So instead of doing my homework after the quiz I wrote. I filled up a bunch of pages in my journal. I only wrote one poem the rest was just feelings. Surprise, surprise. I feel like I'm losing someone who I'm close with, that always sucks. I slept until 5:15 after school. Saxon Shoes called me, I have an interview Wednesday at 3, I'm nervous but excited. Then went to Starbucks with Carly; I had tutoring. Got most of my homework done, like three nights worth of homework I hadn't done yet. Carly and I went to the ATM, then went home. It took us an hour to get home though, we stopped for like 45 minutes and sat in her car in a parking lot and talked. We talked about everything, I told her about my confusion with Kyle. Feeling like I lost my best friend, the family problems we're having. How much I miss my brother, just about everything. I love having her living with us, I just wish it didn't feel like my mom was back. I hate arguing nonstop. When we got home, my dad made me mad but we were fine like two minutes later. I finished the rest of my math, we ate dinner and watch the Pretty Little Liars season finale. I don't know what I'll do now that it's over, it's my favorite show. I showered, cleaned my room, and did laundry. My dad came in my room to talk to me, I basically broke down and told him about the Kyle situation. He said I need to help myself before I help others, so I shouldn't put myself in a situation where I'd get hurt again. I totally see what he means, but I can't it. I love the kid. Studying all night, to stressed to sleep. Thirteen down, 352 to go!
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